you are a baby learning to walk. Instead of learning that you can start on either foot you are taught that you can only start on your right foot. So you start on your right foot. Always the right foot. Eventually you are so used to starting on your right foot that you forget all about your left foot. You forget that it's even there for anything other than following your right foot. This goes on for about 30 years. Then one day you wake up to realize that all this time you've been doing it wrong. You aren't supposed to start with your right foot. You are supposed to start with your left foot. Always your left foot, never your right. At first, you can't even imagine starting with your left foot, but then you try it. It works! You can start with your left foot. Not only is it possible, but it's better! You wonder why you are just now figuring this out. Why didn't you think of this years ago? So you start starting with your left foot. It's really hard at first and every time you move you have to think about it. It's like a mantra in your head "left foot, left foot, left foot".
So just when you think you've got the hang of this left foot stuff you start to relax a little. You've got it now. The mantra has quieted. Then one day you wake up and start on your right foot. It's not something you do on purpose. Maybe you don't even realize you've started on your right foot. Until you start to trip. And you wonder what's going on. Why is everything so different today?
Then you realize. You started on your right foot. You feel bad. You feel stupid. You feel ashamed. You feel angry. Angry at yourself for not starting on your left foot. You know better. You've been starting on your left foot for over a year. What's wrong with you.
It isn't easy to change your ways. Even when you know what is right and you know what you should do you still go back to your old ways from time to time.
I don't really have a point... just the ramblings of a crazy person...
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